Despressing events

So Lately I been a bit depressed.

Lacrosse was going well for a while but lately with juggling of school, lacrosse,gym, and a social life, with homework. It's getting harder.

I have felt like I have gotten WORSE wit each passing day and it's taking its toll on me emotionally.

My dad is leaving for China again and left me with 500 bucks to survive spring break until he gets back. I'm not sure where I'll be staying or who I'll he staying with.

Currently the plan is to ask the dean of residence to stay on campus all of break and go work out at The Rock at Notre Dame all day all week to get as buff as I can in that short week

Not exactly how a spring break should be spent but lately I haven't been in chipper moods.

The new allods patches make me want to quit, tough I hope they wont all come at once and maybe I can tolerate it if they come over the span of a few years.

Me and Steve aren't really seeing each other anymore. We kissed and I didn't really feel any sparks. I'm also not one who's going to chase someone or stalk em so since he stopped txting me I won't ponder about why and just move on.

Idk what I'm missing in my life but it feels like I been empty for the last couple days and I can't seem to decipher why is this the case.

I'm so done with Holy Cross College.

I got a E-mail 2 days ago from IU Bloomington and it said I got accepted so I am DEFINITELY heading there this fall after this semester is over.

-LG...out

Hate school

self explanatory.

I'm not on allods much if at all anymore. I play more on my alt (Sacredsunrise) then Loveguardian anymore.

My alt is a pally and for now my idea is to go the SS build route. he kills things really fast.

Doesn't really even need incense but I use it anyway because with incense everything gets 2-3 hit haha.

I got my friend to play it because Vindictous is down for the count as of lately. He is rolling a mage on the tennesse server as well so I'll be able to help him a bit.


Went on my first date in a very long time last night. The guy was pretty swell. Names Steve and he's 22, about 2 inches taller then me and has the most cutest blue eyes ever (Since we all know I fall head over heals to blue/green eyes). For now he goes to IUSB.

Me and Synthess had a talk over the phone about my sexuality last night. I told her I had a 3 strike rule before switching genders. 3 girls,....then switch and go through three guys and repeat. Not saying I'm a whore or anything; hell I haven't even completed this cycle yet. I already had three girlfriends...just happened to be that my last ex lasted a year before it crashed and burned. So I think this Steve is number two. I like him a lot actually. We're going to be seeing the movies on thursday which I find slightly romantic ha. He's also thinking about applying to IU Bloomington for his master's degree which is where I want to go in the fall so I gotta say I found myself quite a keeper. I got those butterfly feelings so while I'm on cloud 9 I hope and really really hope he likes me back haha.

Anyway, School sucks. I feel robotic, depressing, and horrid. I think Steve though may be able to keep me occupied haha.

-LG

Doing this for a friend

He's a friend of mine.

Aspiring musician and I consider him pretty talented. If you ever hear his vision for music you would know that he has a purpose in life and that he will eventually be an important impact in life.

Anyway, all he really needs is people to listen to his music, be a fan, and find someone in the music business crazy enough to take a chance and listen to his songs and back him up.


Anyway, 1 step at a time. I just want to help spread his music.

If you like his music, be a fan and just support is all I ask. It's pretty good music. I personally the song: "Sick"


The songs are downloadable so that just makes it easier for you to hook it into your itunes library and Ipod and spread the song.


Click here to go to facebook page.

For now, he's an underground artist.


If there's the smallest thing I can do , it could at least be helping getting his songs known by a measly blog which I assume barely anyone reads anymore haha.


-Loveguardian

Lacrosse!!!

So...ended up dropping my ND concert band for lacrosse practice.

I may have fractured/sprained my thumb yesterday. Stepped on it while doing suicides at practice.

Being single isn't so bad. Actually it was quite liberating.

I have SOO much free time now. Didn't help that the once awesome boyfriend evolved into some nasty meticulously harass-fully hateful person.

For now I'm just focusing on friends and lacrosse...and Gym lol.

I'm going to get my thumb splinted today so I can still play and practice.

My roommate is unofficially moving out. His shit is still around my room but he's never here. Kinda stupid cuz I want him to take his crap with him so I can have this double room to myself and shove the beds together lol. Not to mention whatever the shit he has is starting to mold and smell the room.

I just want this room to be mine and clean haha.

-Loveguardian

Too Good to be True.

As of today at 12:22 am this morning. I became a single man.

Schools been really hard. I had 21 credits and ended up dropping 2 classes because of too much workload. I picked up 1 class again so I stand here with 17 credits for the semester.

Lacrosse started yesterday. Despite my workouts- I still found myself aching and sore today. But at least I can say I am not as sore as most of the team is haha.

I'm sick right now...the ND kids that took the conditioning test for lacrosse with us gave us the cold/flu.

So my (ex)-boyfriend Jeff didn't like that I was taking so many classes and didn't like that I was leaving for Bloomington which essentially implied that I would be leaving him.

It didn't help my case that I went looking on a site that shall not be named just to see who was out there. I didn't hook-up with anyone or anything of that sort. I stand by my monogamous morals. Just wanted to see really who was out there. But he "magically" found my profile on the site and assumes I screwed with everyone in the country. #1, so much for trust. #2 stalker? what the fuck were you doing on the site anyways? #3 If I caught anything, he would have it too..Unless he did some messing around behind my back. In which case he should really gtfo.

Seeing as this is my first relationship...I really don't know how I'm feeling right now haha. I thought I was suppose to be sad. Something along those lines. But right now it's more like a "whatever" and "good luck finding someone better then me" as well as "you'll come running back to me in a week" type feelings. What irks me like no other is that our 1 year anniversary is in 3 days. This friday. Somewhere in the back of my head. My pessimistic nature implies that I was nothing more then some boy toy to him anyway. Sad thing is I'm finding justifications to it.

I have a feeling he's going to be txting and calling within a few days (well he's already been txting now but I been ignoring). I'm sure he's going to give me a 2nd chance or something, but I'm not going to really take that offer. You don't know what you got till it's gone. I think he (as well as I) need to understand that concept. We've been together for a year...and in that year all we did was stay at his place. Nothing romantic, nothing "spur of the moment". He said we'd go see movies, he said we'd go skiing. Nothing.

I don't need him to paint me a pretty picture of false hopes. Which might be why I'm taking this break up really lightly.

O well. I think for now I'll stay single for the remainder of this semester and just focus on friends and school....o wait...school just started....god what a long semester this is going to be.

I miss allods. I really want that lvl 45 cap patch and I really really wanna play and farm for lvl 8-10 runes haha.

I was playing Dantes Inferno on Xbox 360 yesterday. Was borrowing the game and console from a friend who lives on campus. He's quite the game addict.

Anyway the game was awesome. Lots of customizations lol.

-LG